its been ages since i felt like writing on my blog. a stray visit to one of the mommy blogs i visit regularly made me realise a very simple thing- my excruciating lower back ache, especially in the morning, is because of the spinal block give to me for my c-section!
its a bit ridiculous how completely up to date i am with every detail of sanah's development, all well read and armed with information about loads of things regarding her. and i had not checked up/ read up about my body. i know i have lost all my pregnancy weight simply because of all the exertion- not because of healthy exercise. that was not good. but chalo theek hai.
my back aches i put down to having to lift sanah a million times a day and sitting at the comp for nine hours a day. did nothing about it. just bit my lip in the early mornings when sanah would want to leave her crib and come to our bed- and i would have to lift her out of her crib.
energy levels by the evening dip so low that i put it down to working really hard through the day.
feeling blue, down, was easily mixed up with feelings - feeling impatient that the film is taking this long ( though i have really enjoyed working on the film), that i am isolated and not meeting friends/ not going out etc etc... i did not even think about anemia/low bp.
okay- the point of this long post- all through my pregnancy and post pregnancy i celebrated my body- reveled in it- reveled in its shape( psst esp the cleavage part...)...was inspired enough to make a film and all of that. but soon enough all of it was history. thats fine ( probably good)- why bore the world with a mommy film- its bad enough that there are a million mommy blogs ( but they are all delightful, if you ask me).
but the problem part- like all good indian women- i forgot my body .